I was happy to leave my previous employer.

I got a big fat raise moving to a company that was known for employee satisfaction.

About a month after I joined, my boss invited all the team to lunch at a local restaurant.

My boss asked me to pay the bill, and then submit the expense report to him for approval.

My gut screamed NO.

All my supervisory training at my prior employer taught me that was a firing offense.

So I had a choice.

I could choose to comply with my boss's request and risk my new position and self-esteem.

Or I could disobey my boss and risk a negative impact on my performance review and reputation at my new employer.

I chose to follow my gut. 

I told my boss I'd be happy to pay for the team lunch and submit the report to HIS boss - after all, that's what proper protocol was at my previous employer. And I couldn't see how my new employer would have different fiscal policies.

He prodded me a few times and eventually gave up and paid the bill himself.

Good thing I trusted my gut. He was fired about a year later.

At the end of the day, you're the one who has to live with the consequences of difficult decisions. 

Trust your gut.

@Antonio Aversano

@Antonio Aversano  I'm trying to write 200-300 words per day as a new practice. I wrote this and its kind of... vulnerable but also is it depressing? I dont know lol. I'm scared to post this... but maybe it could help someone? 

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How are you? No really…. how are you?

I used to live my life pretending like everything was fine. 

I didn’t know any better. I thought I was. I kept busy, followed my interests.

Then I started to uncover patterns and traumas and peeling them one onion layer at a time. Small and big. Deconditioning.

I used to live in my own little world.

Not selfish (maybe?), but just didn’t know any better.

Thinking there was something wrong with me. Making it all about me.

That’s just we do. Most of us make everything about ourselves.

I was never someone that people came to seek help from, unless it was design help 🙂

Once I freed myself, from a life I didn’t realize I was stuck in… 

I learned that others were stuck too. 

So I realized I wanted to help others discover what I discovered.

Sometimes I question it… is it just me? Are others happy all the time, and everything is truly fine?

And then I remember sometimes people just don’t know better. Or they hide what they are really feeling inside. We get stuck in patterns we don’t know we can get ourselves out of. Or we’re ashamed of them and dont want anyone to know.

When I ask now, how are you… I wanna know how are you really. 

How’s your world?

Today, a few days away from my bleed…. Im feeling all the feels. ALL THE FEELS.

So, wherever you are… at your joyous moment or at your emotional release… 

Just allow… be with it. Feel it in your body. Accept. Let it move through.

We’re all in this together.